I want to thank you for having the courage to write on the difficult subject of why babies die and why healing doesn't manifest in your "The Sovereignty of God" articles in your Voice of the Covenant magazine. I believe God got you to write them for me. Our precious son was born in September of 2000. He had a severe congenital heart abnormality called hypoplastic left heart syndrome. He underwent a nine-hour open-heart surgery, but sadly passed away the following day. He was just five days old.

      My husband and I were shocked and devastated by his death. We had prayed, confessed the Word, and believed for a creative miracle for 21 weeks of my 40-week pregnancy. Churches in Sydney, Perth, Canberra, and New Zealand prayed for my unborn baby. My husband went to healing school at our church, yet our son died.

I asked many Christians "Why? Why did this happen? Why did my baby die?" Few could give me answers. I was told, "God is Sovereign," meaning He had a mysterious will for our son to die, even though His Word promised healing. For a few days I believed that, but ultimately realized it was a lie. To believe that God would want or allow my baby to die would ultimately undermine my trust and faith in God.

      People who knew we were believing for a miracle would say to me, "So this must have challenged your faith." I would tell them, "God is good. He loves me. He only wants good things for my life. I can trust Him. He didn't hold out on us. He didn't want our son to be sick or to die. God didn't harm my baby."

     Thank you for your article. I have read it to many people. It has my tears on each page.